About January

new -» starting Yoga Camp and Q&A journal

watching -» a lot of videos regarding twenty one pilots (like a lot!)

listening to -» an immense mix match of songs and artists

favourite part -» Rhodes + Hozier concert on my birthday

Inspired by Erin's "Dear " series from The Halfway Point, I decided to start this monthly thing "About". 
Kind of like review of the months

What about your January? How was it?

Lots of hugs, A

Twenty

Already january 16

I turn twenty today

I remember being fifteen and thinking that turning twenty was an imaginary thing

Almost like an illusion

But it became real and sooner than I expected

Suddenly eighteen came

Then nineteen was already here

And now twenty

I don't remember being so not excited for a birthday

Is not that I will miss my teen years

It's just that time is passing and I feel I'm gliding full speed

In this autopilot mode

I so want this year to be amazing

I keep thinking of how I'm already twenty and

I'm not where I imagined being 

I don't live by myself yet

I haven't traveled the much I wanted

I don't have those friends 

I'm still trying to cultivate more self-love

I'm not yet the person I vision being

Not yet that best version

I've recently started thinking that I should have gone to uni

Not because I really want it

But just maybe to somehow feel safe

Have a plan

Feel I'm part of something

It terrifies me feeling I'm getting older and not going where I want

That I won't be able to accomplish my dreams

To turn them into reality

Thinking that if something doesn't change now it will never change

That I'll always feel this "not enough yet"

Today I'm off to see Hozier

Funny enough his first concert in Portugal is on my birthday 

And was what stopped me from trying to forget the date

Because I truly want to see him

But at the same time didn't want the day to come as that meant turning twenty

Because I know that external pressure and expectations will increase

To make money

To have a proper job

To settle down

And settling might be my biggest fear

I kind of see it as freezing

I don't want that

I want change

I want to live to the fullest

To explore and feel alive, not settle 

I just hope for a fun day

And that this day leads for an enjoyable year

One that can make me feel more fulfilled

My thoughts have been quite all over the place

I don't know, that's probably me thinking too much

But oh well, I am now a twenty-year-old girl

Lots of hugs, A

Kitchen | Vegan Loaded Baked Potatoes

I did this dish last Saturday and it immediately became one of my favourites!!

Didn't plan to do a post about it, but when I finished it looked so yummy that I decided to take some snaps and after tasting it I knew I had to share it. I absolutely love it!

The recipe was inspired by Ellen Fisher. With a few changes so it could be more me - just as a matter of personal taste - and the ingredients I had available.

Potatoes:

Preheat the oven 

Well rinsed, some stabs with a fork and boiled for about 5 minutes

Baked on the oven for about 45 min (use a fork to see if it's cooked)

- I baked 2 sweet and 3 regular potatoes

- after 220°C my oven just says 'MAX' and was what I used so I don't know the exact temperature

Stew:

Coconut oil

Garlic

Onion

Carrots

Chickpeas

Black beans

Sweet corn

Tomato sauce

Black pepper

Turmeric

Dry parsley

Water

Salt

Cashew cream: 

1/2 cup raw cashews (previously soaked for about 3 hours)

1 tablespoon lemon juice

Water (to desired consistency)

Salt

- just blend everything and you'll get an awesome cream

Guacamole:

Avocado

Lemon juice

Black pepper

Onion (finely diced)

Salt

This is seriously amazing!! Please give it a try :)

Lots of hugs, A